Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it

Three nights ago I was flipping through a few red Moleskin journals from about a year ago.   They are lined with apologies.   Last week I went to a young adult group and heard a sermon on condemnation and the freedom we have from it in Christ.   Two weeks ago a dear friend prayed for me, “You’re head is down, but when you’re ready He wants to show you Himself.”   And two months ago, I received more prayer that said, “God wants you to know your worth”. The same night I was reading the red journal entries I kept thinking of that verse, “One thing I ask Lord, this is what I seek:   that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and seek him in his temple.”—Psalm 27:4   As I began to pray I found it was really hard to remove my hands from my face.   The utter idea of Jesus seeing me for who I am made me start to cry.   I couldn’t remove my hands as they grew wet with my tears.   I felt God...

I was going for a drive in my car this evening.   Ever since I sold books, I drive more now with the wind whipping through my hair and music louder than ever before.   Praying on the drive tonight, I began praising and simply acknowledging what God has taught me and matured me in these past few years.   With all that said, it came along with what I hope God changes in my heart.   I said things like, “Lord, wow how you’ve grown my dependence on you and returned my identity from what men think to what YOU think…”   Pretty cool healing has gone on (annndd will continue..). Not long after, I was pondering about His kingdom coming on this earth as it is in heaven.   I get down thinking I’m not obedient to inklings of His Spirit, or I don’t have enough faith!   I want to witness miracles, healings of the sick like the lame, diabetic, cancer, and death.   God, what has gone wrong with me or this generation?   As I got home I turned to John 14:12-...