"But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light."--1 Peter 2:9
There are so many times in my post-college graduation existence (these past two weeks) that I've been asked just what I'm going to do with my life.
I want to make much of Jesus.
Can that be enough? Whether I eat or drink, I'm enjoying Him. I don't blame people for asking because they are probably just curious about my j-o-b. I, myself, have started asking that same question...which translates into, "am I doing enough for you Jesus?"
Not only have I felt a stronger pull to be in His courts worshiping, but on this side of heaven I have to have the faith that He is listening. It can be harder to sit here and grow deeper in His Presence than to start out in a ministry or feel "useful" at church. The former renders results that we think we can see--clean tables, children singing songs, smiles and small-talk--the latter is a quietness and trust that no one else may ever benefit from or praise you for.
For right now I have been told to wait a little. This is harder than I thought. I'm throwing out my own attempts at feeling worthwhile in the kingdom or useful to man. I didn't expect this season to be much of a challenge, but I'm realizing I'm a creature wired to define herself by what she does, and how much she does it.
"Come, Father, have your way."
There are so many times in my post-college graduation existence (these past two weeks) that I've been asked just what I'm going to do with my life.
I want to make much of Jesus.
Can that be enough? Whether I eat or drink, I'm enjoying Him. I don't blame people for asking because they are probably just curious about my j-o-b. I, myself, have started asking that same question...which translates into, "am I doing enough for you Jesus?"
Not only have I felt a stronger pull to be in His courts worshiping, but on this side of heaven I have to have the faith that He is listening. It can be harder to sit here and grow deeper in His Presence than to start out in a ministry or feel "useful" at church. The former renders results that we think we can see--clean tables, children singing songs, smiles and small-talk--the latter is a quietness and trust that no one else may ever benefit from or praise you for.
For right now I have been told to wait a little. This is harder than I thought. I'm throwing out my own attempts at feeling worthwhile in the kingdom or useful to man. I didn't expect this season to be much of a challenge, but I'm realizing I'm a creature wired to define herself by what she does, and how much she does it.
"Come, Father, have your way."
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