Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it

My sweet cousin, Brooke, inspired me to write this post.  She blogs herself about her own journey with Jesus ( read it here! )  .  I don't know what I'm going to end up saying, except that God has been doing a lot in my heart, more than I can physically "see". When Jesus pursues my heart, I feel like it can hurt sometimes.  Because when He is pursuing me, it means that the world is not.  He actually won't even stand for it!  Talk about a jealous Lover.  It's interesting that I could even want this world over His affections. Alas, that is where I've found my heart this evening. "She will chase after her lovers but not catch them; she will look for them but not find them. Then she will say, 'I will go back to my husband as at first, for then I was better off than now.'"--Hosea 2:7

God has been blessing me, and with things that I don't think I deserve... But, that's the thing, they are things I don't think I deserve.  Actually, who is God in this situation then?  If I deem what I should and shouldn't get, would I be more in charge than the Lord?  Yes.  So with much difficulty, I am learning it can be quite enjoyable to receive joys from Him. Things like: My porch swing. My parents. June weather. Iced coffee and happy green circles. Friends and their loving, encouraging words. Jesus!  You are the reason why I can and will enjoy these things.  Because they are merely things that point me to You.  You are the thing I don't deserve the most, but you saw fit to give me Your life. Lastly, I know this verse is talking of God's sovereignty, but it reminds me of the perspective change God gave me on my life, which is God's...however He sees fit. "But who are you, a human being, to talk back to God? Shall what is